New Life

Well, as the title says, I have started a new chapter in my life; adulthood. I know a lot of the older people will laugh at me, because they probably think that I know nothing about adulthood, and I'm just over-exaggerating the statement. Well, I think that I definitely qualify for some of the definition.. I look back at the pictures of me about two years ago.. I'm just so different.. Sure I'm fun, but I've really toned down and matured since all of this stuff has happened in my life. I look around me, and I no longer see the vast, variety of potential I once had. I know what I can and cannot do in life. There's no more guessing, I suppose. I have absolutely no idea what I'm doing.

Along with confusion, I need guidance as to why I am where I am when I am. I know God has me at this state of mind for a reason. I have no idea why, but it gets so tough sometim- most of the time. I know I shouldn't be stressed about God's will for me, but when I'm put in a whole completely different atmosphere than what I'm used to, it's hard to cope. I wish I had a firm grip as to what's going on.

 Lord, whatever You're doing, please help me in the rough times, and even in the good times. I know You're here, but I just need guidance. My bright life has turned pitch black, and I can't even see my hand in front of my face. I need to just reach out, and let You take my hand and guide me; I can't live life impervious to Your will. It would be like running across a highway blindfolded. I can try doing it on my own, but without any sense of direction, I can't live. You are so amazing, and I don't want to take that for granted. Every day I need to be a living example. Lead me to lead others. Amen.


Other than everything going on that is stressful, life is pretty good. I'm alive and breathing, I'm healthy (for the most part), and enjoying EVERY moment of free time I get (oh, how good it feels to be laying down..). Work is great as well! This whole Mitt Romney thing has blown way out of the water though. Work has been a little bit more busy, so I work more (It's definitely more rewarding when I get my paychecks now ;D) I also have made new friends at work (Kristyn, Carol, Martha, Vee, Michelle, Carolyn, Anita, Bev, Cheryl, Sydney, Kelly, Tony, Jess [and plenty more where that came from!]). Working at the Bakery is so much fun, and I learn something new every day that I'm there.

Life away from work is pretty much relaxing as much as I can haha. Sometimes I get back to where I'm staying about 7:30, and I'm as tired as a horse...that is tired. I recline on a luxurious couch, and drink some Sprite to finish my job well done for the day. I am trying to start to get more energized by going on walks. I'm going to go to the nearest park as much as possible!

Well, I'd like to stay and chat, but I got work tomorrow, so yeah..

Sincerely,
Canaan